| i sit around waiting for his phone calls. i wake up n hope to c him. i crave his attention and affection im like a puppy that just follows him around everywhere. i love a man who is his own person and enjoys that. i dont know wut to say and i dont know wut to do and more than anything i hate myself. i hate that i feel so dependant on him. i hate that i look for his approval and his attention. i hate that i want him to be with me everywhere i go. i hate that i love him so much. why do we try to love others? wuts the point? all love is good for is a false sense of happy completion then all that ur left with is pain. i hate myself. |
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| yup definately hate her =) i swear if she had called me a spic one more god damn time! |
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| life is so hard sometimes... i kno u make life wut u want it to be but life isnt always fair no matter how good u want it to be. my insides are hurting so bad my heart hasnt felt so broken in a while n theres just so many things unsaid or even just too much said i just want to find happiness, balance, and peace in my life is that too much to ask? |
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| oki so im getting my bellybutton pierced tomorrow im really excited about that. On another note i feel myself yet again falling away from the relationship im trying so hard to build up. That moment of perfection is slowly slipping into dismality. i cant say that i havent been trying to work on this relationship, i have but at the moment i just cant seem to turn toward the work i shuld be proud of. Why do i keep turning away from something thats always been there for me? LET ME LIVE!! Its sad that im now feeling independant again i want to be out in the middle of the sea isolated from life. I desperately need a dance studio to just choreograph my everything to just get it all out. help me ~7a113n Ang3l |
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